Post by Raven on Oct 7, 2011 18:50:19 GMT -5
October 18th, 2011.
Dear Diary,
It rained today. That's what made me thing of her at first. Then I realized that a year ago today was the last time I saw her. She'd come to my event - just some convention she didn't usually attend because it lasted so long. I'd been so surprised and happy, but now the memory has turned sad. We'd spent all day together, and it was only after the whole convention ended that we both headed for home. I'd watched her disappear into the fog and rain towards her car. When she was almost there, I called out to tell her I loved her. When she didn't reply, I assumed she hadn't heard. Now I can't help but wonder differently. I haven't heard anything from her since. There was no proper goodbye. And I can't help but wonder why. Was it honestly too painful for her? Or did she just not care anymore? Raindrops run down my face as my tears have threatened to do... And yet, there's a strange happiness that fills me. I'm happy that I at least came to know her, even if we didn't last. I was changed for the better by the girl who forever holds my heart.
I'm not afraid to cry anymore,
Melanie
Dear Diary,
It rained today. That's what made me thing of her at first. Then I realized that a year ago today was the last time I saw her. She'd come to my event - just some convention she didn't usually attend because it lasted so long. I'd been so surprised and happy, but now the memory has turned sad. We'd spent all day together, and it was only after the whole convention ended that we both headed for home. I'd watched her disappear into the fog and rain towards her car. When she was almost there, I called out to tell her I loved her. When she didn't reply, I assumed she hadn't heard. Now I can't help but wonder differently. I haven't heard anything from her since. There was no proper goodbye. And I can't help but wonder why. Was it honestly too painful for her? Or did she just not care anymore? Raindrops run down my face as my tears have threatened to do... And yet, there's a strange happiness that fills me. I'm happy that I at least came to know her, even if we didn't last. I was changed for the better by the girl who forever holds my heart.
I'm not afraid to cry anymore,
Melanie